Pretty, Sweet Friend.

Starting to accept, that Cathy may not be back. Will be a big loss, that seemed Very promising at times. Looked just like other situations that didn't look like they were going to work, but then did exceptionally. One took 3 weeks to turn around. This has been almost 2 weeks, but is different. Was hoping that the outcome would be the same, and better. Guess I'll see...

Still hoping I run into her again, but if not, it was a special experience, being that she was So special. Instead of me having to go outside the city to meet someone like her, she came in and to the diner I go to. Can't believe it isn't going to work, in some fashion at least.

Can't believe I can't stop thinking of Cathy, but then thats how impressive she was, which I told her, and she thanked me for. What is Realy strange, that another waitress makes me think about her, but she is chunky has short hair, but Cathy wore her Long hair up... She has one whole arm tatooed, and her neck. She wears an aunt Jemima type scarf on her head. I think it is just her blond hair since most girls have dark hair.

Just thinking about blonds I have known, and thought about 2 hounds. One I went to look at to buy, who had gone into heat, and was acting strange and bad. A yr later I got her look alike, who couldn't have been a sweeter more lovabale creature, after I solved all her problems and sensitivities. The problem is Cathy is like her now.

How can someone get in your/my head, and dominate it? Someone special I guess.

What a strange experience. Wonder why it happened, and the way it did? Wonder where it will end? Interesting...

Guess this is gona take a Long time to forget, and guess I never will, and wonder if Cathy has forgotten allready. She sounded interested, but can't figure why she asked me the questions, and went out of her way to do it. There must have been interest, since she initated it. The timing wasn't good for me, having a problem with losing friends. and though it didn't last long, thought she was going to be one. Sounded like she was going to make up for losing a lot, in the things she seemed interested in.

Thinking about her less, but still have periods... It probably will last, as sweet and pretty as she was. Was looking pretty good, but probably better it stopped. Problem is, it's like I lost another friend, and that's what she was helping a lot.

Funny things happening. The girl that makes me think of Cathy, though all blonds do, said she wants to get a dog. Told her about rescuing a Greyhound, and said that could be interesting, and said she likes them, Telling her I used to have Afghans, she said she grew up with them, because her mom had them. She is a pretty girl but a bit fat, and one whole arm is tatooed, and her neck. I don't mind a girl with A tatoo, but hers are a bit much, and she wears her hair in dread locks. Not appealing to me...

Guess I'm gona miss Cathy for a Long time, she was special... Odd how she appeared here, and seemed interested. Maybe just to get me interested.

A former waitress came back, and made me think that Cathy may. Different situation, but could be possible.

Haven't seen Cathy in a couple weeks. She sure was sweet. Getting busy with the dog stuff, so keeping me occupied. Having both would have been interesting. Managing both would have been difficult. Just the dogs will be.